Like an egg.
My brain is an over cooked yolk and my body is a burnt egg white.
Yes, I am currently a breakfast disaster.
^This is my brain after an Autism-tastic day!
My handsome, brilliant and quirky son.
Today, he was the ultimate poster child for Asperger’s.
It was in full effect today.
Stammering excitement. Check.
Complete lack of common sense. Check.
Loss of volume control. Check.
Ability to cause annoyance in a single bound. Check!
Yup. Full effect.
Parenting a special needs child can be one of the MOST frustrating jobs in the world.
The worst part, is that not many people truly understand.
They hear your sigh of frustration as your kid tells you facts about the Titanic.
What they don’t realize is, it is only 10 am and this is the 142nd time that you have heard this series of facts.
I’m not exaggerating that number.
They see you leaning in and telling your 8 year old in a stern voice, “Stop over explaining things!”.
What they don’t realize is, your son has given his full name, date of birth and vaccination record to about 5 complete strangers today.
I kid you not.
They see you shoot your kid a “look”. The look that says, “Don’t you dare!”
What they don’t realize is, your child’s impulses are about to over power his thought process.
Chaos will ensue.
There are days like today.
Days where you want to pull your hair out.
Days where you want to crawl in a hole and hide.
Days where the ifs and whens weight heavily on your mind.
The days when the disorder completely takes over.
Days where you wonder if he will be ok.
Days where you wonder if he will ever be on his own.
Days where you wonder if he is regressing.
Days where you cry.
Days where you yell.
Days where you swear.
Days when parenting is at a loss.
On days like these, sometimes you just have to breathe.
Remember that it will be over soon and tomorrow could be totally different.
Remind your child that no matter what, you love them.
I tell my son.
“You know, I love you buddy. You are mine forever. No matter what and you have my heart.”
When the Autism-tastic Day is done.
Hug and kiss your child.
Tuck them into bed.
Tell them you love them and you will see them in the morning.
^Me after the kids are in bed on an Autism-tastic Day.
In the morning, start anew.
Start it on a positive note!
Make a special breakfast or give an extra long hug.
It’s not just for them but for us, as parents, too.
Kids don’t have to have Autism to have Autism-tastic Days.
Regular kids do this crap too.
Parents, I feel your pain!